It’s Never Easy: When Doing Right Feels Like Losing Everything

It's Never Easy

It’s only two months into the new year (if it’s past February, it just means it took me longer to muster up the courage to post this) and I’ve been hit with the hardest things of my life. I’ve had to endure false accusations, lose support I worked hard to gain, come face-to-face with the harsh reality of what it means to be a Black American woman in this world and maintain my integrity in the midst of it. Oh, and all this by Christians. I’ve also had to walk through hard conflict-resolution with a friend I once saw romantic potential in.

These things were hard because of what they cost. Better said, because of what I would lose. The cost of walking in integrity to the Lord and not setting an organization above the words of the Bible loss me the opportunity to share the Gospel in Ghana, Cote d’Voire, Nepal, Thailand, Malaysia, India, and Myanmar. The cost of holding a friend to Scripture could lose me my friend and all hopes of a romantic relationship.

You see, it was the weight of these things that tested my devotion to the Lord. Could I bend and lie to say I was at fault? Could I act as if I didn’t see the wrong that was going on? Could I just cut off all ties with this guy, ignore him, and talk sh*t about all Christian guys. Sure! In fact, all those sound like good ideas if I want to live an easy life.

But here’s the thing–God didn’t promise an easy life. Nothing about what He asks is EASY. Yes, (I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again), His ways are simple, but they are in no. way. easy. They take all the power of the Holy Spirit to carry out. It’s the complete opposite of this world and many “Christians” would even advise you not to walk in it because they spend too much time conforming to this world instead of being transformed by the Word.

Simple, but not easy.

Sometimes I ask God, “Why me?” “Why is this happening to me?” and “Why are you calling ME to do this?” So and so didn’t and their life turned out just fine! And sure that may be true, but on my day of judgment, He’s not going to ask about anyone else but me. What did I do with what He told me?

Furthermore, it’s these things that prepare us for the battle. If I shrink at the cost of money or fear of people, how can I be trusted to stand before the tribulation? How can I profess my faith when my literal LIFE is on the line if I can’t stand to lose my idols of money and man?

Scripture tells us, “He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much, and he who is unrighteous in a very little thing is unrighteous also in much.” (Luke 16:10 ESV). It’s the little things that grow our faith. It’s the little things that make us bold. It’s the little things that show us our idols. Oh, it’s the little things. But it’s also the little things that make our Daddy proud. It’s the little things that render us “workmen approved.” It’s the little things the world is watching. It’s the little things that prepare us to stand in the larger ones.

I want to be faithful in the little things. I want to declare like Paul, “Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.” (Philippians 3:8-11).

What’s it for you, my friend? What will standing on His Word cost you?

I want to know. Leave it in the comments or shoot me an email.

Remember, no matter what it costs you this side of Heaven, the eternal gain is worth the loss.

Until Heaven or Sooner,


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